Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Nobody said it was going to be easy.

These days things are hard, not that they haven't been hard in the past; or maybe we're just making things harder than they have to be? They can drive you crazy. They stress you out, and when stressed, who is really ever rational. We say things we don't mean. Hard times happen to everybody and to every relationship. But don't give ever give up; not on yourself and, most definitely, not to who matters to you.

You had your first big fight, or maybe your 5th or maybe even your 20th. You storm out of the house to cool down, meanwhile she's laying in bed with a broken heart; wondering if you'll ever come back, or if this really was the last straw. "I've had enough of this bull shit," you yell before you walk out.

You head all alone to the neon lights. Ask the bartender for the good stuff and he pushes over a double shot of Jack. All you can think about is how did you get into this mess again. It's always the little things that cause this madness. The bartender asks you whats on your mind, "We've been trying to make it work..but this might be it this time. These times are hard," you respond. She needs you now. She wants you now. She needs to know you still want her. But you can't find the time to tell her that everything is going to be okay.

Work is consuming her life and you're searching for a job. Out all day doing your best. Both of you are putting in so much effort, or so you thought. How did you ever get into this mess; its like the ultimate test? You see her pray for change every night before she falls asleep, a single tear running down her cheek.

She's always upbeat, tells you everything you need to hear and keeps you in line. She watches your back and only wants the best for you, and for "you" as a couple. You feel as if you lost it all, asking God for help cause you're doing your best. She's right there to reassure you, "I know you're hurt, but we can make this work. We are going to make this work."

You smile back, but you're so close to tears. For the first time you realize you're not ready to give up; not yet. Not on her, and not on yourself. Is it really so hard for you to tell her you not only need her, but you want her? That's all she needs to hear, and that's all you needed to make things right again; for you and for her.

It doesn't always come easy. It's going to take a lot of effort. It's going to hurt and you're will have to make sacrifices. But if it's what you want and what you need you will find a way to push your pride aside and realize what is truly important. You need her as badly as she needs you. You're not the same with out each other, or when you fight. You look back and remember the old times, when you first met, how you first met, and how happy you were when she said she'd be your girl. Hold on to that, hold on to that feeling.

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